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On Groundedness and Coming Back to Our Bodies 

It's been a little quiet here on my website, I know. I'm sorry.

The reason things have been so low key over here is because my life has been ANYTHING but tranquil. After National Aboriginal Day, Sierra Jamerson and the Symptoms played at the Indigenous Pavilion at Heritage Days, I went on a little Alberta Tour with Tod Hughes of the rocking and rolling Tod Hughes Project, and I turned 23.

Two days after my birthday I had the privilege of filming the live video for Back to Body with The Northern Sessions, an amazing group of people who make music videos [FOR FREE] for local artists. When I look back on this video, I am moved by the sincerety, the pain of a life lived with constant "not good enoughs" floating through my head every time I looked into a mirror. Medgine's spoken word piece and her delivery were so raw even my poor therapist cried! Haha.

But I also look back on this video and see a young woman who was about to collapse from all the pressures she was putting on herself. I wanted so badly to be perfect, to be thin enough, to only take up a small amount of space, to be desired, to be successful, to be financially secure, to advance my career, to be the best, to be flawless....

"Why do we keep killing ourselves for a love that don't belong?"

I had to stop. Two weeks after the filming of this video I was officially diagnosed with generalized anxiety, depression, and PTSD, but honestly this was really no surprise to me. I knew my head was messed up. It was time to slow down and get healthy. The beautiful thing about musicians is that we are able to take our suffering and turn it into the most heartbreaking, inspiring, beautiful and healing piece of music you have ever heard. This is our gift to the world but it comes at a price. I have paid my price, and now I am healing. Having anxiety sometimes feels like my head is spinning 100 feet in the air. Having depression sometimes feels like my head is in a dark underground cavern where I forget what the sun feels like. Having PTSD sometimes feels like there is a masked killer behind every corner waiting to assault me. Now I'm learning what it's like to feel grounded. To be here now. To be in my body, and not just my mind. I meditate, I pray, I cast the spells that need to be cast and sing the songs I need to sing. I ask my ancestors for guidance. I listen to the wisdom of the earth. I plant my feet firmly on the ground each day - not in the air, not in a cave, and not behind every dark corner.

I breathe.

And so,for  you who may or may not visit this website, and may or may not wonder why I haven't been up to anything since April, don't worry. I've been up to a great deal. I am learning how to take care and love myself, to heal, and to take things slowly. This industry is a machine, but I want to be like a tree. Grounded, growing slowly and becoming stronger and more magnificent with each gently passing year. I promise more shows, more songs, and more feelings soon.



 

Seasons/ Native Waves Radio 

My Friends,
I have been a little quieter than usual these days, taking some time to live my life, and rebuild. Don't think I've been sleeping away though! I have planted little seeds that are slowly starting to bloom, all they need is some love and tending to. I have a couple of announcements I'd like to make about exciting things happening with my music....but not quite yet :) Here's a hint: You will be seeing and hearing more of me in other places of the world!!!!! I am so excited. I wish I could tell you all the details. Give it a few days <3

I want to say hello to all of the visitors I've had from across the world recently! Hello Brazil! Hello Czech Republic! Hello China! Hello Spain! Welcome to #TeamSJ

The #RISEUPTOUR is happening soon, and the Edmonton show is going to be great, with Delaney Rose, Andre Longtin, and Lance King all joining me to raise funds for
RIbbon Rouge, the charity I support. I hope to see you there <3

I would like to send a special thank you to Native Waves Radio for putting Blood in the Water into rotation! Thank you for supporting Indigenous artists, thank you for what you do, and thank you for listening!

HAPPY THROWBACK THURSDAY! Here's a video from way back in the day, my cover of Officially Missing You <3

Black Super Moon/Rise Up Tour Dates 

Hello #TeamSJ!

I hope y'all are feeling as good about life as I am right now! After every dark night there really and truly comes a new day. So far 2015 has asked a lot of me, in terms of time, organisation, planning, and playing countless shows. I have a problem with saying "no" to things but I'm working on it. In return, 2015 has given me new love not only for other people, but for myself. She has given me a winter of sowing seeds, of harnessing my own strengths, of following my intuition, and allowing the shadows inside me to come to light. This has been a very healing past two months. I'm beginning to see the different areas where my focus on nurturance and healing is manifesting. Above all, I am excited and grateful. Tonight is a Black Super Moon, where the New Moon is the closest it ever gets on it's rotational axis to Earth. Alongside king tides fantastic for surfers, those of us who are a little "wooooo" in our beliefs say this moon is a particularly powerful time to release old energy, and engage in any rituals that promote health, beauty, new business opportunities, and inner reflection. I'm not very good at meditation but I might give it a go tonight ;). My life has always followed the cycle of the seasons, and the moon is often compared to the cycles within the female body. This year feels no different to me. This is a time of transition, of gearing up for what the spring will bring. This is a year of blessings, of reaping what is sown.

So what's next, you ask? How about the official dates for my Spring Tour?!?!


March 7th -SkirtsAfire Her Arts festival [Edmonton]
April 3rd -Edmonton Pride Centre Fundraiser w/ Evan Westfal
May 24 - Devon, AB
RISE UP TOUR:
May 29th - Victoria, BC
May 30th -Langley, BC
May 31- Kamloops, BC
June 2nd- Calgary, AB
June 3rd - Tour come home show/ Ribbon Rouge fundraiser in Edmonton, AB

Are you excited cos I really, really am! xoxoxoxoxo




May this Black Super Moon mark a period of new beginnings, of growth, of healing and rebirth in all of your lives as well.

Love,
SJ

Since You've Been Goooooone! I Can Breathe For the First TIme!!! 

Team SJ Friends and Fam,
I am the literal worst for letting this blog slide this badly. To say I've been overwhelmed, or busy, would be putting things mildly. Here's what's happened since we last spoke:

- My band and I played the Edmonton International Jazz Festival! It was a fantastic night, and a great opportunity.

-I finally went on vacation.

-Upon regrouping, the lineup of my band slowly changed. I am a-ok with this, as I love playing with just myself and my piano [Alicia Keys]. I have a few players now that i'm excited to be with come Ribbon Rouge on November 21.




-I HAVE A MANAGER!!!!! Mark Rosner, of Rosner Management Services, is a really great guy with a keen eye for business. He takes care of a lot of the behind the scenes stuff for me nowadays including....



-BOOKING MY SPRING TOUR OMG YALL IT'S ABOUT TO GO DOWN!! I can't give away the details yet but it's a real thang, CANADA WIDE.


-I am writing a hip-hop based mixtape and slowly recording that. My producer, Samjay  [check him out right here yall] is a really talented dude. It's a very slow process and this record is dealing with a lot of complicated issues. Dredging up those old childhood core wounds, yall know I'm bout it.


-I've written probably 15 new songs. Let's just say I've been processing a lot of new ideas.


-[She's Gonna] Save the World is being played on Women of Substance Radio based in Los Angeles, California. That means i have just achieved INTERNATIONAL AIRPLAY THANK YOU BASED GODDESS!!!!



I'm going to try and update this space more regularly as I want to keep everyone informed of my happenings. I love you guys, truly.




xoxo,
SJ